JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 9:36 PM

YES! Choonhiang and Minghong coming back tomorrow. It's been so boring since they left. The awkward silence because Minghong isn't talking. And feelings bottled up because Choonhiang's not there...

Been missing them since the 2nd day of their camp. Really hope they enjoyed, because I am enjoying in school! LOL

Had not been thinking properly and correctly. Yes, I have to change. I think I said this many times already but still, no results. Hope this time it works.

你总是心太软 心太软
You're always soft-hearted, soft-hearted

独自一个人流泪到天亮
Crying till the dawn alone

你无怨无悔的爱着那个人
Loving someone without complains and regrets

我知道你根本没那么坚强
I know you are not that strong


你总是心太软 心太软
You're always soft-hearted, soft-hearted

把所有问题都自己扛
Solving every problems on your own

相爱总是简单 相处太难
Though love is easy, getting along is difficult

不是你的 就别再勉强
Don't force yourself if it's not yours


The whole song is basically saying this girl being too soft-hearted and loving her man devotedly and forgot about herself. Although I'm not in love, this song never fails to wake me up. I must stop being soft-hearted. What must be done, have to be done. There's no other way out.

And I realize, as the generation gets younger, the responsibility and respect changes accordingly. In the past, women give birth at the age of 14 or 15. Now, women give birth only above 18. Why? Because we(both males and females) lack responsibilty. The women and men in the past is able to take care of their child when they were only in their teens. Now, we already have problems commiting to our own CCAs? I don't get it.

Few generations above us, they are all respectful people. Now, our generation and younger, do what they think is "right", so they talk back.

Seriously, what is wrong with the discipline? Must you all be driven only by punishments? Must you guys do what has to be done only when there's no other way? Don't you guys have any initiative at all?

Juniors, respect your seniors. That's the least you can do to repay them. If the previous batches can do it, I don't see why you don't. Having fun and respecting your seniors is different thing. When it is the time to be seniors, you jolly well respect your seniors. When it's time to play and not be so serious, you respect them as how you respect your friends(who is older). They are your seniors. They are called seniors and they are there for a reason. They don't deserve your disrespect and all your bunch of crap. When they ask you to do something, it is for your own good, if not, then for the band. You wouldn't want your juniors to treat you the same way as how you treat your juniors now. They'll learn and follow you. I regretted not respecting my own seniors. Start learning how to respect your seniors now, before the sec 1s comes in. Mark my words.

No, I'm not going to be soft-hearted again. Time to be firm and still. Nothing's gonna make me change. I'll work towards what I want. Time to lead.

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 9:43 PM

Of course, no one is perfect. But don't everyone wants to get to as close as perfect?

Intensive lower brass sectionals starts next week. But I think we're starting too late. SYF is just 24 days away.

After hearing so many bands, I start worrying and panicking. Why are all the bands so good all of a sudden? While Huayi is still not progressing? I don't get it. Is it the members? Or the school? Either way, we still have to put in our best in practicing. And if we really do practice hard enough, why the heck are we still not improving?!

Jurongville, Bendemeer, Mayflower, Christ Church blah blah blah. They played so freaking good during the exchanges. Why oh why isn't Huayi progressing?! If Huayi is playing the same piece as them, I bet they would win us totally.

Huayi's aim is gold. But look at other bands! They are more qualified for gold than us! How could we aim for gold, and not work for it? Gold doesn't come free! You have to put in effort and work for it!

Only 24 days. 24 golden days to work towards our common goal: GOLD. Please. Preservere this last 24 days. Put in your best for this last 24 days.

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 9:11 PM

People! Don't give up! It's just a few weeks till the competition. Hang in there!

By the looks of what Szefann and Siwei posted on facebook, I start wondering. Are we stressing the sec 2s too much? Are we being too selfish to get a gold and forgo their stress? Then, again, aren't the seniors stress too? Aren't Mr Tan stress too? Gahh... what to do?!

I guess the least I can do, is like what everyone else is doing. To encourage. SYF is just near the corner. No doubt everyone is stressed. But just hang in there. The results would be satisfying. Even if we stayed in silver, or get a gold. Because we all know, we put in our best.

Just don't give up now. What's the point of learning your lovely instrument for 1 and a half year, and then you're ready to get defeated by a national competition? This is, I will say, stupid. Come on people, being a musician, you have to be perservering. Be strong! And this attribute will help you succeed not only in your musical life, but your reality life as well.

Band members, perservere through this hard period, and the results will be satisfying. Jiayou (:

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 10:53 AM

"Decide carefully, exactly what you want in life, then work like mad to make sure you get it."

Today's practice. Hahaha. Chuan Jie's doctor asked him not to come for practice. Weizie and Yaoren had to decorate classroom. Yikai and Senmian got lesson. Nadhirah was sick. I was the only lower brass member in band for the first few hours. LOL

Solo-ing was fun and challenging. I didnt thought I could support the band with my standard. But turned out that Weizie and Yaoren could even hear me from their 3rd storey classroom. Hahas. Sense of achievement. :D

No major mistakes made. Mr Tan didnt shoot tuba this time. Was really surprised. Thought I wasn't loud enough, or whatever mistake I could have made. The only thing is that... I keep running out of air. LOL other than that, everything is fine. WOOTS!

If ChoonHiang didnt say anything, I wouldn't have realise I really did improve. The last time during december we went to Mayflower to practice. The whole tuba section went for their tution while I was solo-ing for Mayflower Band. At that time, I could hear my awful tone and I wasn't loud enough. Today, yes, I still hear my not nice tone, but I think it's still better than the december. And most importantly, the band can hear me. I can finally help Chuan Jie in his burden for playing loud. :D

I regret only to realise the importance of sectionals at late sec 2. I remember I used to complain sectionals was so boring. But if you know what you have to work on, it's really really useful. During practice, you cannot keep on practicing the specific part you need to work on during main band practices, as Mr Tan have to play other songs as well. Sectionals is the only time you can work on your flaws.

I have to admit. Conducting sectionals was enjoyable. I don't know why too. People I know seems to hate to conduct sectionals. But for me, I really do enjoy. Teaching both Huayi Lower Brass and Mayflower Tuba (Though only once) was enjoyable. Thanks for allowing me to conduct for you guys and thanks for not giving me any problems. (:

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 10:55 PM

Problem solved. (: Glad.

That's actually my purpose of posting today. LOL But since I already start posting, I'll make the post longer. xD

Tomorrow is Friday. I'm nervous for band practice. Chuan Jie's not going to be there again. I'm afraid tomorrow will end up like Tuesday. Lips and fingers, please don't fail me tomorrow.

SYF is just less than 1 month away. EVERYONE PLEASE BUCK UP! I know tuba section is the one who needs more time. But still, jiayou! :D

Hua Yi Secondary School Concert Band would be going for her 6th SYF on the 12/April/2011 and it starts at 8.30am. Lips and fingers and eyes, please don't fail me on that day too. PLEASE!

Fun will be followed up after the intensive practices for SYF. Look forward to it! :D

March holiday is coming. Sec 3 camp is coming. SYF is coming. So much to be excited for but at the same time so much to worry for.

Let's hope everything goes well! :D

PS: This is like my shortest post ever since I came back to blog again? LOL

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 10:25 PM

Seriously... The school is trying to turn everyone in to a no life bastard/bitch.

Like, hello? This is our life. You already made school compulsory, now you make us go to your total-waste-of-time activities? This is OUR life. We get to choose which path we want to go. I seriously don't understand why school do all this shit. Isn't originally a place for us to study? What has it become now? Isn't studying stressful and tiring enough? They still want us to go to their activities?

What if we can't finish our homeworks because of that activity? What if we don't get a good result for our CCA? What if we don't achieve a good grade for our exams? No, they don't hold any responsibility. All the faults comes back to us, the students.

Yes, I may be exagerating. But, really, I don't see a need in all this crap.

What happen to the "Freedom of speech", the "Freedom to control your life", the "Freedom to... make mistakes?" Teachers even want to control want we say, what we do, our daily lives... It's as if we are living for the school, for the teachers, for our assignments. Say something inapproriate, they call you "a person with no respect". Do something that's unique, they call you "a person who do things without thinking". Make a mistake, and they say you don't listen in class.

Enough of ranting. Let's enter a despairing topic for the body of the post after an angry introduction.

Band yesterday was another worst practice I had. Chuan Jie was absent for band practice. I thought I could lead tuba section to the end of practice. But everything just went wrong.

We played 4 pieces yesterday. Singapore Flyer, Ride, Dawn of a New Day, and Choreography. The most mistake-proof is Ride. Though I think we sound very much different if ChuanJie is here. Singapore Flyer gave Mr Tan the most headache. Tuba section... I don't know what happened. It just collapsed yesterday.

Even me, just what was wrong with me yesterday? Everything was going haywire. From tuning to rhythm, from tone to loudness. Singapore Flyer slowed down. Ride high note couldn't reach. Dawn of a new day slowed down pathetically for 1 whole beat. Choreography... The whole tuba section just played with it's own rhythm. Every tuba players had their own speed...

Yes, I did felt demoralised. And when Mr Tan said we are all making mistakes now because Chuan Jie is not around. He carried on asking: "He is not going to be around in one month's time you know? How can you still depend on him?" I felt even more discouraged. As the most senior member in tuba after Chuan Jie, how could I not able to support my own section when our SL is not present for practice?

But I know I cannot stay being so discouraged. I have a duty to do. I have to take up ChuanJie's role as a senior. I have to stay strong. I have to get better, I have to improve.

Mr Tan is really striving for a gold. Otherwise, he wouldn't even bother the small details and make us play till it's perfect. But are we also striving for a gold? Is our goal the same as Mr Tan's? Even if we have our GOAL as GOLD, are we striving for it? I'm afraid. I really am. We've worked so hard. Why not work even harder to have more guarantee in achieving a gold? Don't give up, Jun Rong, you have to stay strong and perservere. There's no other way out.

Let's head on to a... I-don't-know-what-to-call-it ending of the post.

I don't know what to say. It started from a very small thing. Furthermore, it was a misunderstanding. All of us know that ourselves. How are you able to stay angry at us since yesterday, because of that damn small thing?

Qinyan has not been laughing as much since that "incident". Because you still wouldn't want to talk to us. Because you are still angry for I-don't-know-what reason. But seriously, I don't see any reason you should or can still be angry at us. We've already apologised. And we did not only apologised once. We apologised multiple times, just because of that small misunderstanding! We also did apologised sincerely. It's not like we said "sorry" insincere or what. Why are you still ignoring us?!

I really don't understand how you can stay angry. Even so, we still include you in our daily conversation or ask you to join us for recess or after school. And what did we get in return? Your attitude, your ignorance. I was at first hurt, by you ignoring us. But now, I'm pissed. How could you just ignore us? Aren't we your friends? TOO?!

We waited for you outside the classroom for you to be ready to join us to go recess or morning assembly. But you returned our favor by acting like you don't know us, and walk straight and fast to your friends.

Enough is enough. If you don't recognise us as friends, I won't waste efforts trying to gain your forgiveness too. Plus, IT'S JUST A GOD DAMN SMALL MISUNDERSTANDING!

I'm not detesting you. But I don't guarantee I won't in the future. I post, because I don't get what you think and yes, I'm pissed. And maybe you will read it and talk to Qinyan because you might just be soft hearted. However pissed I am, I want to let you know, you're currently still in my best friends list. I hope I will not remove you from that list.


Sorry if you readers are tuning in everyday and see new posts and thinks it's irritating to read on or whatever. Have a lot of thoughts these days. Have to vent it out.

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 7:15 PM

How nice would it be, to tune out from the world and indulge into music.

What if, you wake up one day, and finds that you are deaf, and the only thing you can hear is music. Is that a good thing or a bad thing?

Think about it. You don't have to care you can't hear, and what you can hear is one of the world's most beautiful sound/noise. You can finally be free from all your burdens. No more studying, no more relationships problems... Life would be so free.

As much as music is a wonderful thing to listen to, if you can only hear music, wouldn't it be boring? Think about the things you can't hear for the rest of your life. Laughters, jokes, sweet things said by people, etc.

I was plugging in my earpiece in MRT just now on the way to Pasir Ris. As my earphones were those types that when you plug in, you can hear nothing outside, I can hear nothing except for the music which is playing from my iPhone. The scene in the MRT was beautiful with the music. But at the same time, it felt empty. I see my friends laughing happily, but I couldn't hear their laughters. I can only hear the music...

Music is really a wonderful thing. It can make you happy or cry for no particular reason. When I was listening to my iPhone, I smiled to myself upon the thought of my friends. All of them smiling happily. I couldn't use words to describe, but I smiled broadly upon this thought. All my friends were laughing and enjoying themselves so happily, so carefree. Amazing how music can bring you to a totally different world eh?

Just now in the MRT was one of the rare times I used my heart to listen instead of my ears. And the music was beautiful. It was beyond words that can describe it. Although I had heard my iPhone songs for many many times, I think just now, it's the nicest of all. It's like soe kind of magic had happened. Turning the music into a nicer tune, a piece that touched me.

Entering to the world of music seems like you need a certain key. First, you have to know music. You have to know how each instruments operate, or how they sound, or how you are going to play them. Next, you have to learn how to listen. Then, you have to finally open the "door" and "see" what the piece of music is trying to say. There is no particular answer. Everyone's view is different. But everyone's answer is the same: "Beautiful". Why? Because what they see, cannot be described in words. And "Beautiful" is the closest word to what they could use to describe what they "see".

Now, what I'm going to see without my eyes is my dream. LOL Bye readers, your author for this blog is going to bed.

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 10:48 PM

hahas, this quote is so freaking true.

ok, so, everyone is so tensed up, so serious suddenly. Hey, people, yes, we're sec 3 and SYF is coming, we're going to be the most senior batch when the sec 4s step down.

But being depressed over studies and being angry or disappointed of band is not going to help. You guys have put in enough effort. We can always study together. (: As for band, it'll be okay. (:

Please oh please, dun ever make me cheer both of u up again, Qinyan and Choon Hiang. Stay happy please.

Alright, enough of nagging. Shi Hui once told me she scored a top ten position once but she was not at all happy. Why? Because she neglected her friends just because she wanted to score well for her exam. Then, she told me she regretted neglecting her friends just for the sake of good results. She ended her story with "I can give up anything for my friends".

PS: This has nothing to do with studies. Don't get stressed up.

That was one of the sweetest thing I've heard. I had been saying how much my friends worth to me. But can I really sacrifice anything for them? Can I be a friend as good as Shi Hui? I'm not sure.

I have no idea why I post this too. I just feel random.

Let's make the post longer with another sweet thing I heard. LOL

There was this once, so long ago even before the sec 2s join the main band, when I was extra emo during band practice. Chuan Jie was pestering me why am I so emo. I faked a few smiles and teased him abit to assure him I was alright. hahas.

When I went home and switched on my computer and logged in to msn, Chuan Jie started a chat with me. He asked "Why today so emo in band?". I was unsure of what to reply. He added with "Is it because your friends say band suck again? Tell me who. I go bash that person up". I was touched. Hahas. Funny how small little things can make me happy. I asked Chuan Jie once, if his friends commented that band suck just to irritate him. And he actually remembered. This insensitive senior of mine, actually cares. Thanks, senior. (:

Shi Hui and Chuan Jie may have forgotten what they had said to me. But I've always remembered it. (:

Ok, post long enough to end. LOL

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 11:17 PM