yes, i should really believe in myself now. believe that i can play my tuba nicely. yes, it's time that i play my tuba nicely now. why am i still giving suckish tone?!

Ever since the day i joined tuba section, i dun think i've helped out chuan jie at all. I think all i gave him was troubles and burden. like seriously, mistakes and attitude wise? damn! He should have punished or scolded me a lot of times but he didnt. now, im still making shitty mistakes. why can't i just play the songs nicely, perfectly?! god damn it. chuan jie is holding up tuba section alone and me, as a senior, is not helping, instead, gives trouble. WTF IS THIS?!

Playing skills, attitude, behaviour, confidence, can i really be the most senior member of lower brass section? much less an SL. Am i really able to lead? Do i really have the qualification?

I really want lower brass section to excel. with or without seniors. next year, im going to be a damn sec 3, with all remedials flooding in. and god damn it! y in the world did i choose triple science?! ok, so next year, im going to be sec 3, with more remedials because im in triple science. and chuan jie and senmian will be sec fours, with more remedials than they have in sec 3 because they are revising for their Os. Will Weizie, Yaoren, Yikai and Nadhirah feel insecure when the seniors are not here? Will they break down in the middle of the song? Will they even skip practices just because the seniors are not here?

Even me, im not even confident with what i play when chuan jie's not around sometimes. and my tone is not getting better (FUCK). my sight reading is still like shit. my rhythm is not as good. ok, at this point of time, i guess i should really let my musician dream die off.

Yes, im not believing in myself now. and i know i should be believing. because if i dun believe in myself, how would my section believe me as a senior? How would they even believe themselves if i, myself dun believe in myself?!

Now, what i can do, or what we can do, is to practice, and believe in ourselves. have confidence and keep on playing. until one day, we really excel in our instruments. All the best. (:


No, im not going to show my emo side to my friends again. They have no reason to worry for me. Im going to be independent and solve my own problems. My friends have their own problems too. They dun have the time to help. and afterall, 1 person being sad is better than 2 person being sad. So from tomorrow on, everyone will only know the Junrong that laughs crazily, non stop, until he hugs his stomach in pain and gasp for air. The Junrong that is carefree, nothing to emo about.

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 9:10 PM

excited for tmr! mayflower people coming huayi and we are taking section photos! *hint hint* xD

and there's POP next year. NOOOOOOO! I dun want this year sec 3's to leave! T.T AWESOME SENIORS! was sec 4's not sec 3's?! DAMN! Why are awesome seniors leaving?! come back often yea? Band will miss you.

AND AND AND! Tuba concerto is nice! LOL used to fall asleep while listening, but now concentrating listening to it, it's nice! and i finally realize the beauty of tuba. IT SOUND SO FREAKING NICE! but why cant i play like that... haiz. anyway, though it's the bass and it's big and it's heavy, it's a damn bloody shitass awesome instrument! :D

today marks the start of S1OC. though it was a bit noisy and crazy(I cant believe i did that last year too), i hope all facs and campers enjoy it. (: But most importantly, JOIN BAND AND COME TO TUBA/LOWER BRASS! :DD

i swear i will treat next year's junior better if they are not guai lan or wadever shit. I'm gonna be a good senior! LOL! *everybody gasp* ...

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 8:49 PM

*THIS POST HAS NO OFFENCE TO MELODY PLAYERS EG. TRUMPETS, CLARINETS, ETC*

Fed up with people saying bass players or bass instruments is useless. =.= or they dun sound nice etc... Please la people, you guys are not even in the music industry and have no knowledge about music who are u to judge the bassists?!

Bass: Tubas, Bassoons, Bass Clarinets, Baritone Saxophone, sometimes Euphoniums and Trombones. We provide the skeletal of the whole music. Yes, people hear the melody, but music without bass? It's like... Human without skeletons?

We, like the high pitch instruments, can play soloes. Yes, we can. And yes, we play it nice. It's up to u to decide if it's nice to you or not. You dun say it's not nice by general.

Although the bass is important, melodious instruments are important as well. Yes, they can play the bass part at times. Vice versa, bass instruments can play the melody too.

Another thing, People, STOP staring at musicians who carry big and heavy instrument bags on their back, eg, tuba bag. =.= Hey, what's wrong with carrying the tuba? Stop glaring or starring. Either you have never seen a tuba before, or you are just stupid. =.= Don't you know it's rude to stare?! Go on, stare more. I'll just glare back. Or should I be guai lan and say "Yea, It's the tuba. oh wait, do u know what is a tuba since u keep starring at it and think wad it is? (:" XD

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 1:04 PM

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!

Sorry for not posting after the band camp. Not going to type all about band camp. We practiced, marched and played. (:

Performed at takashimaya last night. Was a success. Mr Tan said some one from "Jupiter" came to watch and was happy with our performance. :D She said if Huayi ever wants to go Taiwan, can contact her company anytime. MUAHHAHAHA! NO MORE MALAYSIA! xD

Mr Ho and a lot of other conductors were there. But they didnt come to watch us. They came to watch the primary school performing after us. hahas. but they were also surprised by our performance. :D El bimbo, Sleigh Ride, Enchanted, Fireside Christmas and Super Mario. :D

YAY! HUA YI BAND IS RECOGNISED NOW! ^^

Let's all do well in our marching and SYF now and get a gold. :D Huayi band will then be famous in the band industry in Singapore. :D

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 9:14 AM

Last post before I'm off for 3D2N band camp starting tmr. Not bringing my phone. So dun expect a reply from me. (:

Wondering if i should bring my homework there and complete it in the camp. LOL

Finally got to practice with huayi band again! :D excited for camp. hahas. Gonna see familiar faces. :P

Sore eye is not recovering. So im gonna bring it to camp. LOL camp also no eye drop, so i think it's going to get worse when i come back.

Come back from camp will eat tang yuan! :D

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 7:53 PM

YES! PEOPLE! SMILE! LAUGH! BE HAPPY! STOP EMO-ING! pft

People are emoing these days... qinyan, choonhiang, i think samuel also? gah...

have been trying to improve tone since dunno when. but it's still suckish as ever. and to make things worse, nicholas and qinyan said tone is very difficult to change. takes about 6 to 12 months. I DON'T HAVE THAT MUCH TIME! ONLY 4 MONTHS LEFT TO SYF! haiz... what have i been doing last year?! should have perfect-ed my tone and everything. 1 year wasted like that...

what if my suckish tone dragged the band down to silver? when everyone put in so much effort in ride? and it'll all go down the drain just because of my tone?! and my sight reading. ok nvm that. it'll come later. but TONE!!! GAH

ok, shall end my post here. stay happy people! (:

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 10:31 PM

"The difference between a successful person and others is not a lack of strength. Not a lack of knowledge. But rather is a lack of will"

YES! I perservered and completed 2 out of 4 of my homework! xD English and history. :D chinese requires chinese newspaper and (1) i'm lazy to read chinese words, (2) there isnt any interesting news there (or is it i cant read too many words that's why i think it's not interesting? oh well..) I think choon hiang will strangle me when he sees this. LOL and give me plenty of chinese tuition. :P

Sorry for not posting for the past few days. though i dun have many readers too. LOL life is rather dull... band, concert, eat, sleep, computer, homework. yea. I think Hema scolded me for having no life when i told her this. LOL

But hey... SYF is coming up. isn't it normal to practice harder? And everyone is pressuring us to get a gold. How can we get gold without practicing hard?

But come to think of it, am i really neglecting myself? Band band band band... Concert concert concert concert... Hey, where's my movies and enjoying with friends? and everyone is resting for this 2 weeks while me and some other band mates go all the way to ang mo kio just to practice. When we can use all these time to hang out with friends and enjoy our lives.

Oh well... actually i dun care. there's plenty of time to enjoy after SYF. and i really am enjoying myself in band. :D

However, this 2 weeks break is making me miss huayi concert band. yes, i know, it's just 1 week plus. practicing in mayflower feels different. maybe i know people in huayi band but not in mayflower band. i get this sense of belonging in huayi band. i do enjoy sectional in mayflower band though. although it's only once. LOL

Yes, i miss everyone (practically) in huayi band. those that makes me laugh, those that makes me feel assured, those that piss me off, those that plays in hua yi band. Guess i'll really enjoy band camp when all of us goes back. (:

And after band camp, it's the christmas performance. hope can gather the whole tuba section or whole lower brass section to take a picture with our santa's hat or reindeer's horn. XD

sadly, there wont be practice after the christmas concert. and i've been thinking how the hell am i supposed to bring my tuba to sch on the first band practice next year. with new classmates in class with my tuba? they'd think i enter the wrong sch. i should be in some mental hospital instead. oh well, hope there's performance during the orientation camp so i can leave my tuba in sch. (:

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 5:02 PM

"Music expresses that which cannot be said and on which it is impossible to be silent."
~Victor Hugo (1802 - 1885)

One thing I don't understand: Why do singers and actors earn more than musicians.

Let's compare.
Singers - sing
Actors - act
Musicians - make music through years of practice.

You go out to the streets and grab any random people to sing, act and play a musical instrument. Most people can do the first 2. And they would use their "common sense" method. They puff their cheeks and BLOW air into the horn. While the actual method is to bite for woodwind and buzz for brasswind. Playing a musical instrument comes with practice. No one can play it immediately. Singing and Acting is the direct opposite.

Musicians also have to worry about a lot of things. Example, their tone, their tuning, their rhythm, they loudness, their skills(running notes, double tonguing etc), and money. Why money? They have to buy their own instruments while singer's voice comes free and actor's acting comes free too.

(most) Singers, unlike chorals, do not know how to read musical notes. And they obviously wouln't know italian, french or german terms for music. How they sing? A pianist would play their part and they would add in the lyrics. Some don't even know what the heck is tuning. They would just rely on the recording machine to make them sound nice for their CD. But live performance? Either they make a fool out of themselves, or they lip sync.

Actors, on the other hand, only memorise their god damn script. And cry when necessary. This, too, needs practice. But it won't take as long as YEARS to practice.

And I conclude, singers and actors make money through their face. NOT their talent. Even if you act really poorly, or sing very poorly, you still get a good pay if your face isn't disfigured. And yea, for those who hate certain celebs, go ahead and destroy their face. Sit back and enjoy to see how they earn money from the media world.

Musicians, definitely do not need or care about their appearance. They earn money through their skills. And their skills are obtained through years of practice, unlike singers and actors. You would probably see ALOT of fat, bald, albert-einstein-hair or geeky musicians. But you would not use these terms on celebs. Because, celebs use their appearance to earn, while musicians use their skills to earn. Nobody would care about the musician's appearance! However, like I said, even if you act poorly or sing badly, you still earn a great deal of money if you are a singer or actor.

Musicians put in so much effort. Practice for years. Sacrificed so much. Yet, they earn so less?! or rather, in singapore? Why do singers and actors earn more than musicians? I don't see a point. Musicians should really get more well-paid than singers and actors.

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 6:02 PM

Went to mayflower today to have practice. took taxi and it cost $32+ LOL wth right?! me, chiaowen and nicholas shared costs. so yea, one red note of mine and chiao wen flew away coz of my god damn heavy tuba. MRT and bus seemed too risky of me, so yea. LOL

i'll skip the whole practice since im not really in the mood to post. LOL

lunch break... went to nearby coffee shop to eat. THE CHICKEN RICE IS DAMN NICE! IT COSTS $2 ONLY. and it's very little la. BUT IT'S DAMN NICE. i ate 2 plates. LOL! coz i was hungry and it was nice. :P

ok, went back for sectionals. joined their lower brass section for sectionals. Amelia conducted. If there's one thing i learnt from this trip, it is how to conduct sectionals. Chuanjie's way and Amelia's way of conducting is totally, completely different. I actually needed some time to get used to it. I've learnt for Amelia that I really need to stand firm on what I say. And really, discipline. LOL She is so much more strict than Chuanjie.

Amelia got despo after a while. So i offered my help to coach tuba juniors and amelia would take eupho. Tim Lin, one sec one tuba player from mayflower, writes down wadever mr tan said, and wadever i said. LOL i was really impressed. Amelia did write down too. Mayflower band is really hardworking, or at least their tuba players. This is wad i really have to learn. LOL All their scores are full with pencil markings and highlighter ink... and when i said something like "this place need crescendo", "this place need to play short", they really really write it down.

Blah blah blah... Sectionals ending, went back band room to pack, put my tuba in their band store room. (i miss my tuba. T.T)

Went to clarinet outing. LOL at vivo. with nicholas and chiao wen. LOL played a few rounds of murderer and mafia. ate with nicholas and chiao wen. MRT-ed and Bus-ed back home.

1 day gone~


ok, i dun care if i get slashed or wad liao. I'm just going for my band practices and exercises. no one's stopping me. please, i'm already 14. i can take care of myself. stop trapping me in four walls. I want to practice. Yes, ang mo kio, mayflower sec, so what?! gah... why are you always so overprotective?! The slashing incidence has stopped for about one month! stop worrying! I'm going fr my band practices AND concerts AND exercises. The people who slashed probably got caught and ran away. And u dun see the WHOLE of the area getting slashed! I will take care of myself. and i can. Stop nagging and stopping me from doing what i like. u know i hate that. period.

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 10:09 PM

"Friends add happiness and subtract misery, by the multiplying of our joy and the dividing of our grief."

Ok, first, Samuel said I was carefree. Then, Hema said I was carefree. Now, even Choonhiang says I'm carefree! LOL! Am I really that carefree?! And all of them used "carefree" the exact same word. None of the used "nothing to be emo about" or "so relieved of stress", no, all 3 of my best friends used "carefree". LOL

So, let's analyse how "carefree" I am. Things to worry about:

• Studies
• Friendship
• Love-ship
• Family
• CCA
• Career
• Others

And the results...

• Studies - School's over and EOY results was satisfying so NO
• Friendship - NO
• Love-ship - No lover or admirer so NO
• Family - NO
• CCA - A bit?
• Career - No career so NO
• Others - A bit? O.O

Ok, I really am carefree. CCA and "Others" add up is nothing compared to what the 3 are/were emo-ing.

But hey, life wouldn't be meaningful if you live through it without emo-ing and obstacles. Occasional obstacles are welcome. :P (I know I sound like an idiot saying this)

Hey, Samuel, Choonhiang and Hema, dun emo urself hor. (although i know choonhiang will) anything must tell me. :D although i dunno how to comfort you all la, but i'll always be here when u 3 need me. :D (Now praise me for being sweet. xD)

Went running with Choonhiang, Xinying and Kaili today to improve stamina for band. :P Choonhiang played basketball, so me, xinying and kaili go run first. We ran around huayi. Ran 3 rounds, xinying and kaili could not be seen behind me. LOL so i went back find choonhiang. talked with him while waiting for xinying and kaili. Did a little push ups, and they came back ler.

Choonhiang asked if i want to run again with him, so we ran around hua yi again. Was talking and running with him at the same time. half way through 2nd round my stomach ache. So choonhiang continued the last round himself.

Waited for choonhiang to be back. Bought chips to eat coz hungry. LOL Choonhiang went back playing basketball. eating chips alone while kaili and xinying was talking. Choonhiang came back, den we talked. Xinying came and ask if we wanted to share cost for minhui's present. I paid $4 and Choonhiang paid $2. LOL den the 3 of us talked abit. Den xinying went back to kaili and went to JP to buy present for minhui.

Me and Choonhiang stayed and talked. I gave him my leftover chips coz i think it isn't nice. LOL! and he thought it was nice. O.O talked alot. but didnt complain anything. hahas. Capricornians tend to complain alot. :P Choonhiang kind of lectured me about being filial. :P

Choonhiang finished the chips and he was going home. I walked with him since i've got nothing to do at home. He was still lecturing me about being filial. LOL and also talked about other things with him.

Walked him to his home. Den went home alone. :D

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 7:01 PM

I hope Minghong is feeling alright now...

Band-ed in the morning. Was still emo-ing since last night. So, reach canteen liao just sat there and emo. Choonhiang caught flu, so he wasnt talking much too. Samuel... well, he was busy. LOL

Normal practice. Tried to play loud and nice tone today. Loud, i think ok but my tone was still suckish as usual. And mr tan kept complaining tuba was too loud, resulting in slowing down, so i think i'll put my tone as priority now.

Asked mr tan whether we can join mayflower for practice for the next 2 weeks after practice and he agreed. :D woots! no boring individual practice! xD

Lunched with minghong, samuel, choon hiang.

Went back for marching. Marched 1 round in the quadrangle, den go to basketball court to have another round, back to quadrangle for another round.

Minghong fainted after the last round. Like really fainted. But he come to senses after a few seconds. Then, faint again. He scratched his knee and elbows because of the rough texture of the quadrangle floor. Majors carried him to the bench. He looked damn pale. But he still had the usual smile on his face.

Majors released us for break and instructed us to drink water. We were released after the break.

Packed tuba into light weight case and carried minghong's bag to general office with samuel. Stayed there with Ms Chia, Chuanjie and Minsein. Ms Chia was complaining why our batch keep giving her shock. First was me vomitting, now it's minghong fainting. LOL den she asked samuel when he will be giving her the third shock so as to give her mental preparation. xD

The 5 of us joked in the general office, including minghong. LOL! untill minghong's father came and picked him up, we left. went back home put instruments with choonhiang and samuel. Went teh tarik for dinner with Samuel, Choonhiang, Chuanjie, Genevieve, Minhui, Qinyan and Chiaowen.

went back home. (:

Samuel is going Macau tonight. BYEBYE~! Have fun and dun forget to buy souvinirs for us! LOL

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 6:07 PM

had sectional in the morning with choon hiang and clarinet section. LOL! me and choon hiang was extra-ing. but went outside to practice ourselves later. choon hiang helped to improve my tone. and i think it was quite a success? LOL could somehow hit the right tone but cant really sustain it. and when it comes to playing songs, i go back to my suckish tone again. oh yeah, played tanglewood with him which was a total fail for me. LOL fingering fail, timing fail. gah...

went to samuel's house with choonhiang, genevieve, qinyan and min hui in the afternoon. had damn lots of fun there. LOL epic twister and Wii. xD The teddy bear i love made me sneeze again. LOL left at 6+.

took bus 187 with choonhiang, qinyan, genevieve and min hui. i think we made damn lots of noise though no one complained. LOL we were talking about gossips and people we dislike. :P and problems faced during sectionals. laughed, joked and scolded. LOL

alighted at backgate of huayi with choon hiang. went back home. (:


To Juniors (whom it may concern):
Being close with seniors doesn't mean u can be rude to them anytime. (: Example, scolding them assholes (or schronzo), idiot or wadeva. Being close to seniors (or friends) means u can share what you want with them and pour your feelings to them, share the darkest secret with them, joke with them, laugh with them, tease them, etc. being close does NOT equals to scolding. and if u meant to joke, please do it outside band, and/or make your joking accent really obvious. (:

I think choonhiang is right, i can never finish writing a compo about u. Bad things of course. I cant think of anything good abt u anyway. But really, i'll try. I try not to hate you. after all, we are still going to spend another year together.

I know people are getting pissed by my sensitiveness. I get hurt by words easily. I myself hate it too. but wad can i do? it's my personality. im born like that. and i cant say im trying my best to change it, coz i ain't. sorry to those whom i pissed. really sorry. Even being so sensitive, i still dont watch out my words. I still shoot out asshole, idiot, etc... to my friends. i know im being a real bastard here. im really sorry. sincerely. but i think having to apologise most is to chuanjie. i even scolded him asshole infront of juniors. i really deserved being pumped but he didnt. this senior of mine is really... i dunno? not right in brain? anyway, wad i meant was i dun usually mean wad i say when i say nasty things. really. usually, i regret saying it the moment it came out of my mouth. yes, apologizing doesnt cure anything. i should change. i know. i'll try. i promise. but pls do bear with me during this period of time. i really dun want to lose any of my friends because of my suckish personality.

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 7:33 PM

Marching today was.. not really good. LOL! first time marching with instrument. and wad's my instrument? TUBA! yes, the big, macho, instrument. and it dun come light.

tuba players were given a sash to help them carry their instrument with greater ease. unfortunately, my sash was new but lousy. cannot adjust one! LOL so i had to hold my tuba like i have no sash. near the end of the marching session, my hand was so tired that i hunched my back and march. I didnt have the strength to hold my tuba to the desired height.

And to make things worse, my brain could not remember march together. so i made countless mistakes today. bravo to me!

(my muscles still ache from carrying tuba. TT)

me, choon hiang and samuel was complaining how tiring the marching was and complaining which of our instrument gave us the most trouble (of course mine la! LOL) after marching. went for lunch. but i didnt had appetite. felt like sleeping. LOL ate bread anyway.

mayflower people came while we were going back to band room. warmed up, mr tan came, practiced, amelia and shimin came, practiced, practice end.

went to teh tarik with samuel, choon hiang and ming hong. ate, joked, drank, stole(?) LOL! stole qinyan and chiao wen's french fries. :P Samuel and choon hiang was discussing how to steal their fries, den i just stood up, go to their table and said "hi" den just take one fries. LOL! chiao wen was hitting my hand. HAHAHA. of course, we bought our own fries and pay them back wad we took. :P

bought drink. samuel bought mr teh tarik dinosaur which choonhiang described as "shit". LOL den samuel was also eating like he was eating shit. =X really no table manners. LOL den choon hiang planned to take a photo of his unglam, but too late. so he just took the "shit" samuel bought. den out of randomness, samuel said "this is how i play my instrument" den he bite his straw and blow. his drink bubbled violently. LOL

den samuel's father was coming to fetch him, so we go back sch. ming hong left mysteriosly. LOL den the three of us was saying how fast he can say something and den disappear fast. i tried. i said "choon hiang, u suck" den faster went to hide but fail. LOL we were walking through buildings that time. so a lot of walls.

Samuel randomly said "jun rong, u suck" den move to the left of the wall, i was moving right of the wall. but surprisingly, both of us moved back the same time and we laughed at our epic ness. LOL

samuel was walking up to the dustbin. he pushed his drink into the mouth of the bin but it rebounded. LOL den samuel epicly tried to save it and push it back to the bin again. xD

just outside the sch, samuel was walking behind a not-so-very-thin guy. den samuel was imitating how the guy infront of him walks. LOL! damn mean la! xD but me and choon hiang laughed. :P

so... samuel went home. den me and choon hiang went home too. :D

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 5:45 PM