Am I too annoying?
Am I too sensitive?
Am I too selfish?
Am I expecting too much?
Am I easily jealous?
Am I too ambitious?
Am I too stubborn?
Am I too straightforward?
Am I too hyper/crazy to the sense that I'm embarrassing you?
Am I complaining too much?
Am I a backstabber?
Am I too bossy?
Am I bearing grudges?
Is that the reason or are those the reasons why people are pissed with me? Or at least why I offend people?
Or am i simply thinking too much?
I don't want to say sorry anymore. I don't want to make mistakes anymore. Yes, no one is perfect, but wouldn't everyone wants to have mistakes to their minimum? All these crap I've been doing has been making my friends emo. I'm sorry. I'll try not to do it again. I'll try to control myself.
Seeing my friends emo makes me feel hurt. Maybe because I feel useless not able to cheer them up. I know I myself is also emo-ing, but , Dudes! Can all of you start asking your mouths to tilt upwards instead of pulling a sad face?!
The sight of my friends being happy is enough to make me smile. Maybe this is the reason why I keep apologising when someone gives a stern face. Hahas.
I read this quote somewhere. Saying something like "Sometimes, if you apologise, it doesn't mean you are admitting you are in the wrong, but it means you treasure this relationship more than your pride". I agree with this quote. But I've never really felt like this before. Because I'm always the one in fault.
I couldn't bear the thought of my best friends quarelling. What am I going to do? Neither the thought of me quarelling with my best friend (again). What are our friends going to do? Bring stuck in the middle never feels good. Again, I am seldom stuck in the middle because I'm mostly involved in the conflict.
I should start treasuring my friends more. Period.
fell in love with music @ 8:28 PM
