Should be doing homework now. but oh well. xD

Out of boredom, i questioned myself why do i have such a strong passion for music. and i went on listening to disco party. now i know the answer. music makes me happy. and i want to make people happy. this may sound cliche and such. but really, music is beyond words. there's no way you can describe music. and it has this supernatural power to make you feel so happy, so carefree.

I enjoy making people happy. Seeing them smile and laugh is enough. I dun mind making a fool out of myself just to make my friends' lips tilt upwards. And maybe it's this trait that im afraid my friends, or someone, to be angry at me. So, sorry to friends that i may have offended you due to my not-thinking-before-i-talk. especially choonhiang and qinyan. LOL sorry to have teased you both so much. (though i guess choonhiang would ignore this apology since he know me so well he should know i would continue. xD)

Or maybe it's capricorn's trait to talk before thinking. to be easily jealous(I doubt i would have no troubles getting a girlfriend). to be hurt by words easily. to be the most stubborn out of the 12(or 13?) horoscope. To like to complain (and finds it difficult to keep things to themselves?).

right, back to the topic. Music. Huayi Public Concert is coming up. it's on the 26th of feb from 7 to 9 i guess. tickets at $12 each. concert features choir, hip hop, guzheng, dance society, concert band and student talents(i have no idea what this is). but band is performing at the second half of the concert. repertoire includes disco party(if we can play within 1 month's time), ride, super mario and more. :D do come and support us! :D (though my blog's readers are only samuel, choonhiang, qinyan, amelia and sheryl)

oh right, there's this clarinetist called elizabeth in first toa payoh said huayi band members are guailan. =.= for god's sake, when did we guai lan you? and no, im not afraid to name you in my blog. come and find me if you have a problem with huayi concert band members. =.=

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 3:45 PM

With the popular demand to post, I've sacrificed my beauty sleep for this post. LOL

Although with the homeworks, stress, tests and everything I experienced in secondary school, I pretty much enjoy it. Not the "School" but the life in a secondary school.

In primary school, we were all still immature and childish. We had no idea how to handle relationships, and friendships are easily broken then. But now that we grew more mature, we know how to handle relationships now. And that doesn't mean we cannot have fun. In poly, JC or university, we will be even more mature. and the "fun" we have now would be deemed as "immature". So secondary school life is the point of time i think we can have the most fun, and at the same time, handle relationships well.

Surely, secondary school gives all of us more stress, more homework, more tests, more subjects blah blah blah. But it will be the period of time i will miss most after i graduate. I know I will never experience such fun and carefree. You can be immature for all you want, what you have is your friends, you can be mature for all you want, and you still end up with your friends.

Any lower than secondary school, you have no goals. any higher than secondary school, you would be busy working towards your goal and miss out tons of fun, stressed by the opinion you cannot achieve what you want and so on. But in secondary school, what you need to do is to study. and what you need to know is your goals. other than that, have fun with your friends!

Thanks Choonhiang, Samuel, Qinyan, Chiaowen, Minghong, Junkai, and Nicholas for making my 1 month of sec 3 life interesting. Will miss you all dearly after graduation (except for nicholas, he already graduated. xD).

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 10:05 PM

Thanks for people who wished me happy birthday and gave birthday presents! :D really thanks a lot. and sorry for posting it so late. LOL

School... i think getting more and more boring each day. but thanks to band peeps in 3E2, they make me carry on in class. in fact, the only thing i look forward to in school is band and friends.

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 8:30 PM

Sian sian sian... this weekend so many homework. =.= and dunno why really no mood spend my birthday. so tmr just go bugis with friends to buy clothes ( and maybe cut hair? coz caught by VP =.=)

Sighs... have to finish homework today or will not have time to do tmr. Chinese compo... NO INSPIRATION! TT

Today is NAFA open house. but no one pei me go. D: and i guess nicholas is performing now. good luck nicholas! :D

Speaking about nicholas, i recalled yesterday's MSN conversation. LOL nicholas was calling everyone noobs. Choonhiang was Choon narb, Qinyan was Qin narb, I was Narb Rong(but obviously i should be called Jun Pro or Pro Rong. xD), so i gave nicholas this name: Narb-cholas. ROFL! i know i rock. xD

Yesterday CCA day... some sec 1s were already selected to join band. was quite surprised with the number of pri school players. quite a lot from primary school band or primary school CO. glad they join. :D and nicholas says there a primary school tuba/cornet player. LOL hope it's tuba! :D den this guy can pull hua yi tuba's standard up again. (:

Hope many would join band. And of course, have a junior in lower brass. for both eupho and tuba. this year sec 1 look guai. :D so wouldnt have much trouble ba. LOL

Comments about band yesterday was "loud". LOL i guess that's a good thing? at least we can project our sound to a large area of the school. hahas. and more sec 1 would hear us. furthermore, we played from 3.30 to 6. surely, sec 1s will have deep impression of band. xD we also played super mario and enchanted. which they can be quite familiar. and they seem to be interested in symphonic episode 1 too. :D COME ON SEC ONES! JOIN BAND! XD and especially with these crazy sec 3 senior batch, they are sure to join band. LOLOLOL

Competition is coming up. my ride is not polished up yet. dang... tone is improving very very slowly... wonder if i can make it to competition like that. and i guess im becoming more and more strict towards weizie and yaoren. ok, maybe weizie only. coz he was doing actions that are not supposed to do during band practice. gotta train my loudness too. or else when chuan jie leave, tuba section would sink in band.

ok bye. gotta go back to homework. LOL

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 4:10 PM

I was talking to Nicholas about NAFA (when I was supposed to be doing my homework XD). Den I really was shaken if I really wants to go NAFA. I mean, yea, Nicholas is encouraging me to go. But well, look at Singapore. Does musicians get a good pay? Does musicians pay more on their educational fees than what they earn?

However, if I give up my musician dream, I really don't know what job I would pursue. Surely, every job has a risk. What if I can't make it being a musician? What will I pursue then? I don't know...

In addition, to get in NAFA, you'd have to pay a yearly school fee of around $5000. and you will have to buy your own instrument. Tuba costs around $8000 for a better ones, but not the best yet. I would prefer YBB 641, the current one I'm using in hua yi, coz i got used to it already. it cost about $7900 now? the price would soon go up to $8000. And there's access course which gives you a higher chance to get into NAFA. which costs about $2000. All these adds up to $15000. I'm not financially prepared.

Ok, Nicholas says that NAFA would lend you the instrument first. So my tuba can wait. $8000 gone temporary. left with... $7000. Ok, I could save up $7000 by the end of sec 4 hopefully. Now I'm financially prepared. But now, my playing skills. I really doubt my playing skills. Even if I have the money to get in NAFA, they still would judge on my playing skills. I know! PRACTICE! that's not a problem. the problem is, we are getting lessons!!! I don't even have a proper warm up now! how can I improve my tone?! And with all the homeworks flooding in, even if I bring my tuba home to practice, I wouldn't have time to practice!

Ok, let's just say everything goes well, I get into NAFA. What am I going to do after I got my bachelor degree from NAFA? Go overseas to get a Master's or Doctorate degree? This, too, requires money. and this time, it costs more. Plus, I wouldn't want to go overseas. My friends and family is here in Singapore! I couldn't bring my family overseas with me, because my sister will still be studying in singapore! she have to finish her education! I can't imagine the boredom and loneliness when I go overseas to study or even work.

Nicholas also suggested joining the SSO as a tuba player, he says it's a career. But an orchestra only needs 1 tuba player. And how many tuba players out there would want to join the SSO? They would of course go through auditions and trials, blah blah blah, and choose the best. It's not that easy.

And I told myself I want to earn much. I want to provide my children with the best. I want to buy them anderson's ice-cream without feeling the pain of losing money. I want to treat my family with restaurant food without feeling to pain of losing money. I dream of living in a condo or terrace house with my wife and kids. And all my kids would play different instruments. So I would have to have the amout of money to buy it, and for maintenance. All of these requires money. Can musicians earn that much in Singapore?

With triple science course, and A maths, i can easily get in to any JC or Poly course and earn a lot when I goes to work. But music is my passion.

Now, I would have to choose between passion, or money.

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 10:25 PM

To the person who is posting advertisements on my tagboard, I know u are the same person. Changing your nickname on my tagboard doesn't help. Please stop posting advertisements on my tagboard, as it is getting flooded with your tag and it is getting irritating. Yes, I'm saying it's irritating because I asked u to stop but u didnt. =.= so thanks very much to stop posting those things on my tagboard.

Back to a normal post. Ok, it's not really normal. Coz im gonna scold.

I'm already 15. Please respect my decisions, actions and thoughts. I believe you took care of me for the past 15 years is not because you want to make decisions and make me do it for the rest of my life rite? if that's it, you might as well get a puppet instead. Puppets dun even rebel. But i do. I know clearly that i have school the next day. And i WILL reach home. Stop guai lan-ing me when im not back at 7 or 8. As i said, im 15 this year. I know how to take care of myself. Eating dinner and chatting with friends, watching concerts, etc, all these dun end early. You were once a teenager, why cant u understand?! And no, I dun think my room is in a mess. At least those parts that belongs to me is not in a mess. So stop clearing or tounching my things. I would appreciate real lot. I wouldnt like it either if my things gone missing and i have to ask u and u would say "It's your things wad! You are the one responsible for keeping it! When you need it, you keep it, when you don't you throw it around, this always happens!" Yes, you have been saying this for the past 10+ years and I would normally just ignore you half way through the "speech" everytime. I would also appreciate it if you don't "help" me keep my money. I'm saving up for my tuba, access course. Just this 2 costs about $10,000. and I have to get it by the end of next year. there's still NAFA school fees, which costs $5000 each year. Here I am trying so much to save up the money I get from you two. But you just keep taking and taking my leftover money in my wallet and put it in your own wallet. You know clearly both of us wouldn't like it when I come looking for you to pay my school fees. But still, you take my money. Next, early thanks for not guai lan-ing me anymore. No, I have to rebel that I'm not the one who started the guai lan thing. It's you. Who starts guai lan one?! U guai lan me i also dun like right? den i talk back 1 sentence you KAO PEI KAO BU me. And just a warning if you still don't know your son well after he'd been spending 15 years with you, I'll reply guai lan answer to guai lan question. =.= and no, the calculator was bought from school. it's compulsory. we ARE supposed to use in school. =.= and thanks for teaching me to walk off when your child havent even explain to you. =.= now, you're complaining about your hard life... and yet, in your complain, u complain that u've NEVER complain while doing work. zzz... Yes yes yes, i've never been studying or doing homework. When i was reading my textbook in front of you, you were just blind right? Plus, it's dad who gives me money everytime i go out, not you, bitch. And when dad doesn't give, i'll take from my savings. yes, from my supposedly-used-for my tuba and access course money. But i'll have to thank you one thing. If it's not all your scoldings and naggings and complainings and kao-pei-kao-bu-ing to me since young, I wouldn't be such a patient guy now. So yea, that's one advantage out of millions of disadvantage to me. And... oh, about the complain when me and sis grows up and still wants to take in you and dad, well, actually i was really planning to live with you and dad, when after what you said just now, no thanks. I'll live happily with my wife and children and maybe dad. But definitely not you. You have NEVER give me any nice memories since young. What you're giving me is scoldings, naggings, kao-bei-kao-bu-ing and signs of no love. Really, I really admire my friends who have a warm family. They're close to their parents and siblings and have such a strong relationship between them. In my family, it's all coldness and maybe with hate. This may be one of the reason why I'm not coming home early. Because I hate this kind of family. I hate being at home with this kind of feeling. I'd rather be with my friends rather than at home...

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 6:38 PM

Just yesterday, i made some comments about myself. and today, the whole day, whole sec 3 express classes went for this "super-teen" course that talks about being successful in life, self esteem and how to study for exam. and out of this 3, i think the talk about self esteem benifitted me the most. (:

"Life's not fair. If you think life is fair, you are crazy. So, life's not fair. But so what? Life's not fair, so you have to make your life fair for yourself." This is what the speaker, Mr Peter Lau said. and it really inspired me. He meant either you accept your life, or you change your life. For things unchangeable, accept it. For things that can be changed, change it for the better.

He went on telling us about this guy having pimples. This guy's mother sent this guy to super-teen camp. but warned the speakers not to say about her son's bad pimples. however, when mr peter saw this guy, he forgot whatthe mother said because this student's pimples was so bad. so he went on saying "WA! your face pimple plantation ar?!" and the whole class laughed. and of course, the guy was mad and wanted to challenge peter, but, he controlled himself. for the next 3 days of the camp, campers teased him about the "pimple plantation". Finally on the third day, in the middle of the class, he broke down suddenly. he shouted "SO WHAT?! HAVE PIMPLE SO WHAT?!" I can really imagine the anger and disapointment he had in himself. Mr Ernest came and said "Yeah, have pimple so what?" and he added on "Class, can u accept him for having pimples?" and the class said "yes". Mr Ernest said "The whole class accepts u. The only one who dun accept u, is urself".

This story really really inspired me. bad skills in tuba, so what? bad skills in tuba, so i have to practice more. juniors might be better than me, so what? juniors might be better than me, so i have to practice more. other people seems to learn faster and easier than me, so what? so i hve to practice even harder or practice another way im practicing now, but since i cant find another way, i'll just practice harder.

Super-teen called the campers back in another 6 month's time. and this guy, his face was a whole lot better now. and mr peter went to him and say "Wa, your face better ar!" and this guy, again, says with his anger "BECAUSE OF YOU ALL LA! SAY WHAT PIMPLE PLANTATION, WHAT ACCEPT MYSELF" something like that.

Mr Peter and Mr Ernest also says that Self esteem is being lovable and have capability. Lovable, not people loving or liking you, but are you able to love? and the first person you have to love is yourself. they carried explaining what's love. in simple form, love is the accept the person. you have to accept yourself for who u are! ur looks, ur weakness, ur strengths, etc. and capability, u have to be confident. well, i think both factors are very closely linked together. so if u have one, u probably have the other.

Another thing i learnt from this course is to set goals and believe i can achieve it. this definitely requires a higher value of self esteem as u can see "Believe i can achive it" up there. now, to list my goals in order:

• To improve my tuba tone and rhythm (well, tone first, definitely) before SYF'11
• To be a good senior after SYF, both playing abilities and attitude
• To score 8 A1s for O levels (Mr Ernest kept stressing this LOL)
• Practice, Practice, Practice for audition for NAFA access course and NAFA
• Earn or save up $$$ to buy a tuba and enter NAFA access course
• Study well in NAFA
• Learn either composing or conducting in NAFA or other music schools
• Work in the music industry and be outstanding
• Be Singapore's top tuba player
• Be the world's top tuba player (I dunno if im day dreaming, but since it's in my "Goal list" I'll continue day dreaming xD)
• Help Singapore get it's music standard up
• Spread the awareness of music to the world (or at least Singapore)

Since i talked about day dreaming, Mr Peter also said Mr Ernest once told him to beware of people who day dream. Because one day, their dreams might come true.

Yes, I'll work hard for both my tuba skills and studies now. And i'll achieve those goals one by one.

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 8:38 PM

2nd day of school. Lessons started. Physics teacher Mdm yeo was nice. :D chem teacher Ms Chiang is also nice! LOL science will so be my favourite subjects this 2 years. xD still waiting for bio teacher. hope it's some interactive and fun teacher. but mdm yeo said it's most probably mr lim. let's check him out on fri. XD

was late for band with the entire sec 3 express band mates. lessons until 3 when band started at 2.30. haiz... chuanjie and min sein laughed, again, at my long pants. *...*

After band went to eat dinner with chiaowen and qinyan. chiaowen was doing random and epic things as usual. XD qinyan was... laughing at chiaowen with me. LOL left teh tarik at 7.30.

guess i have to apologise to choonhiang. LOL for his latest blog post. and since he sits beside me in class and in front of me in band(new sitting arrangement), he's the one who hears my complaints the most. after all, capricornians stands out at complaining and being stubborn. xD so, sorry choonhiang! this gonna continue until we graduate. LOL

finally, i realized. it's no that i hate you. it's the personality and character we share that i hate.
Both of us are:

• Rude
• Too ambitious
• Attention seekers
• Lousy temper control
• hates being a loser
• pride - even when we lose, we'll still find excuses and say we win the other party in one way or another
• loves to criticize
• gets jealous easily especially when we tried so hard to get something but still cant get it and someone just comes by and gets it without effort
• hates people for pointing out our mistakes because we think we are so good.
• guai lan especially to things we oppose

Yes, it's not that i hate you. Whenever i see u, it's like seeing myself in reality. not the appearance, but the behavior. I dun hate you... the person i hate is myself.

Yeap, who am i kidding?! ur tone is really better than mine. but i find every single way to counter this sentence. ur learning pace is faster than mine. and i "forgot" my learning pace when i was ur age. I'm no better than u, scolding seniors assholes, idiots and everything when i was a junior back then.

now, what do i have the rights to hate you... when we are both the same...

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 8:22 PM

Face the facts...
And get over it

First day of school... is so fucking screwed. =.=

Only see our EL/hist/form teacher, mr shoon, Maths teacher, mdm lye and chinese teacher mdm tan. all was pretty good. at least they're guai lan teachers. p/s mr shoon is very lame. LOL

Classmates... sigh. was pretty glad to be with same class with band members. but 2E2'10... choonhiang, chiaowen and qinyan complained to me abt 2E2'10. LOL say damn guailan la... damn irritating la... but oh well. im used to this already.

Class commitee is also screwed. Vernon as CEO... i can tell he's really bu shuang. LOL and who in the right mind would choose vernon?! i mean... look at him! he's small sized, look like he will get bullied anytime, does he even know how to lead the class? no offence though. and no, i do not want to be CEO either. haiz... 3E2'11 is so screwed with a whole lot bunch of classmates...

Qinyan, Chiaowen, Choonhiang, Minghong all got a post in class commitee liao. Qinyan as CL rep, Chiaowen as Events manager, Choonhiang as OM, Minghong as Maths rep. im the only one without any posts. LOL and minghong plans to sabo me. if he's going to sabo me to being subj rep, im fine. but the teacher better not be guailan. LOL

Excited for bio lessons. yea, thats the only lesson im looking forward to. LOL and maybe chem. bio teacher better not be guailan. XD hope Mrs E or Mrs Wee(are they the same person?! LOL) come and teach our class. but haiz, with 2E2'10... can teach untill everyone is interested meh? some certain gang would be guailan-ing the teacher about sexual reproduction topic =.=

Assembly... this is the time i can chop at any papers that says "Huayi Secondary School is screwed". come on teachers... who are u kiddng?! sitting arrangement for assembly?! sitting according to our index number?! i hope u arent treating urself as 3 year old kids. LOL coz im pretty sure a whole lot of us would be ignoring that rule. and the 6pm bell thing?! 2 words. FUCK YOU! the last SYF, HYCB practiced until 7pm but still got a silver. now u are closing the school at 6?! and if we dun get a gold back, u are blaming us for being noobs. seriously man, what happened to people who work for MOE?! all got head concussion during the holidays?! =.= oh, and the discipline talk by DM, Mr Razak, im so not going to follow. HAHAHHA! come and tell me to mind my language. =.= What logic is this?! u can scold students idiots because it is found in the dictionary?! hey, fuck is also found in dictionary. can we throw "fuck u" at u when u kb us? =.= huayi is so screwed...

After school went to eat lunch at macdonald's with samuel, choonhiang, minghong, chiaowen and qinyan. thanks guys! really appreciate the thought of hanging out as a sec 3 express band gang. hahas. really love it. really. (:

joked, ate, teased, emo-ed(?), talked, left at 3. walked the same way and went to grandma house while the rest of them go home.

chatted with grandma and slept for one hour. came back home at 5.30. end of day~

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 6:24 PM

Yep, it's a brand new start of a new school year tmr. New class, new subj, new friends, new sitting arrangement, new teachers. haha. was classed with all band members except for samuel. XD Me, Choonhiang, Chiaowen, Qinyan, Lois, Vivian, Minghong... 7 band members in 3E2. WOOTS! we're so going to piss our teachers off with our passion for band. xD lets all pon any activities that stay us back and miss band. :P

It'll be cool to have all 8 of our batch's band members hanging out as a clique. LOL hope the 7 of us would sit together in class tmr. xD and i dun think mr shoon would change our seats. so yea! we get to stay at our seats. :P

sectional is cancelled tmr. (dang) and new sec 1's would be coming in. hope they have nice attitude and not rude. and i'll be sec 3 this year! LOL long pants! xD and more senior this year! time to boss people around. LOL jk.

I actually wants school to start faster. I miss my friends. but i definitely doesnt want lesson and school activities to start. just friends and band. :D

oh yea, my class got all the good teachers! :D mrs selina wong, best SS teacher. Ms chiang, best chem teacher. Mdm yeo, best physics teacher. Mdm Lye, one of the good maths teacher. Mr shoon, not bad hist and eng teacher. oh wait, they say mrs heng is not a good geog teacher. so yea, just 1 bad teacher. LOL dunno my bio and chinese teacher yet. hope they're good. :D

and i think all band members take geog instead of hist. T.T I'm so left out... but well, i have 2E2'10 to accompany me. :P

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 2:02 PM

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE! :D

Sorry for not replying all your new year messages, but i really do appreciate it. thanks so much! :D and the reason why i didnt reply, my msg is limited. sorry! now, waiting for december, so i can change to unlimited msg. :D

posted to 3E2 with 2E2'10 and band people. :D all express band mates are in 3E2 except samuel. LOL now he's so despo to change class. Hope 3E2 will be a pleasant class with pleasant teachers(So not gonna happen. Teachers aren't pleasant at all).

Chiaowen, Nicholas, Qinyan and Vivian came my house to countdown/celebrate/slack after we finished our sectionals and our dinner together. :) bullied qinyan like siao. LOL Samuel came at 11+. Did some retarded funny video after having the inspiration when watching youtube. xD tried to send a msg to Channel 8 but was too late. msg was not displayed on tv and my $1 is cheated. T.T

Wishes for 2011:

• Better playing Tuba skills
• HYCB to get gold for SYF
• Have higher self confidence
• Improve in studies
• Save more money to get a tuba :P
• Friends to stay together and to stay happy :D
• Sec 3'10 and Sec 4'10 HYCB members to come back often. XD
• To control temper better.
• To love instead of hate.
• To change for the better.
• Be a better junior to chuanjie for the last 6 months
• Be a better senior to juniors
• Have a tuba junior!! :D or at least a lower brass member. :D

That's all. XD

JunRong~!
fell in love with music @ 11:52 AM